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Monday, September 19th, 2005
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| Time: | 10:18 pm. |
| Mood: |  moody. |
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ever since school started, life has been really damn hectic. I have homework and tests all the freaking time. its hard enough just to pay attention at school without falling asleep. I told myself this year that I wouldnt get distrcted by friends and "special greenery activities" but it's starting all over. I'm making new friends and getting involved with boys and making it my entire life. Im better than I was last year cause I do spend nights at home just working on school stuff and what not. but even at work Ive been a lazy bitch because I just cant concentrate on anything anymore. I really pissed my favorite manager Matt off because he told us we needed to stop talking and start working but I swore we were definitley working and I basically just bitched at him and thank god he likes me cause otherwise I would have gotten in a lot of trouble. I feel like shit about it though cause I didnt even realize how bitchy I was being until I went and visited there today. ANYWAYS. interims are coming up soon and I better get fucking awesome grades. but I guess I'd have to work for that too. I still need to do my grad project and study for SATs and work on college applications but I wont let it all build up cause thats when I start to lose it. So far though I've felt really happy with myself and content. Ive been keeping myself from getting all stressed out too. I just dont procrastinate with everything. Ive been hanging out with hali all the time and her boyfriend pat, and then our friends chris and bj. chris and bj are 10th graders but they are really cool and act like I do so whatever. its funny that theyre are in my little brothers grade. and the guy im kinda with is scott. hes like white thuggish-type guy. I guess a wigger but he doesnt at all think hes black or anything. were just getting to know eachother for now and hes trying to get his shit together and get an apartment. I dont even know if we will ever really be official but we'll see. I really like him for now. and then chris the other night was trying to get with me and I was like uhh...scott. so I made him stop even though he was like "we dont have to tell anyone" then I talked to scott about it and he was fine with me doing my own thing. anyways I gotta shower and do homework still so Im gonna go. goodnight <3erica
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Friday, September 2nd, 2005
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| Time: | 11:05 pm. |
| Mood: |  hopeful. |
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so Ive been to three days of school and I'm already tired of it. my classes are okay though. I'm taking psychology, anatomy/physiology, analysis, sculpture, critical viewing, english and thats all so far. later on im taking plant science and business management. I think this will be a good year. not easy or anything, but I like my lunch and I have at least a couple friends in each class. I like art the best cause jess tyler and kirk are in my class. and bigjiglan teaches it. but I only have that every other day. We had off today and we do monday of course so its a nice long weekend. Ive been working every freakin day though. I have monday off though, thank god. theres a bunch of good shows coming this fall. like lovedrug, underoath, senses fail, the bled, blah blah blah. oh and what I hate the most about school right now is that I have my two english classes right after one another, in the same room and with the same teacher. it will get so boring so fast. in fact, it already did. I guess I forgot how many friends I have in this school. in lunch I have jon, korey, sandra, jess, casey, billy, and a whole bunch of other people. work was ok today, sam was really upset and ended up crying as she left and I felt so bad because nobody else noticed or really cared. overall though, Im doin really well and Ive been happy lately, just tired. christie left for college today and I saw her last night and Im really gonna miss her. same with kacy. well im gonna go. I have work at 9am. :( oh and gas is $3.66 at what used to be the cheapest gas station around. it was a whole dollar less only a week ago. I hate that I need it.
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Sunday, August 28th, 2005
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| Time: | 11:35 pm. |
| Mood: | chipper. |
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so... busy time! lol thats me lately. I went to penn state to move my brotha into his apt. and Jess accompanied me lol Im glad she did. we walked around town like zombies cause we had about 5 hrs of sleep. I like it there a lot and mostly because its chill and its all older college peoples who arent lame like newtown youngins. Im pretty damn sure thats my first choice school. work was extremely long today, and my manager was being a dick and I wanted to rip both his and kellys faces off. sandra was there at least but we were both pissed all day so we had a fun after work talk. I saw jenn biggs in new hope, she works at primal urge and we caught up a bit. I talked to jamie today and Ill probly be going to visit her sometime soon, shes taking the semester off with good intentions. Ive seen hali the past two days and shes improving her "ways" to my likings. I wonder how much Im going to be working once school starts. Ill need cash so hopefully enough to supply me. and jess - Im burning your cds tonight so Ill have them back to you soon, i can bring them to school. my parents are watching the ring 2 so theres lots of creepy noises. well this is the last night of freedom, school is tuesday wooh! (haha yeah right) time to check myspace...lame.
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Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
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| Time: | 7:34 pm. |
| Mood: |  sad. |
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I'm tired of putting on this fucking happy face but I can't even describe how I feel or why I'm upset. I thought everything was okay and back to normal but I think I'm worse off than I was when I felt depressed in springtime. please don't ask me whats wrong because I cant tell you, I dont even know why I cry everyday now.
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Sunday, August 21st, 2005
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| Time: | 8:11 pm. |
| Mood: | depressed. |
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I just wish that everything would be okay already. with everyone. I hate this drama
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Saturday, August 20th, 2005
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| Time: | 9:20 pm. |
| Mood: | crappy. |
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my eyes are burning. I am waiting for tim and kacy to finish eating FOOD and then were going out. I was taking a nap earlier and spongebob came on during it and I had this extravagant dream about how him and patrick got stranded on an island somewhere and were trying to find their way out, and all the dialogue on the show was in my dream. I woke up not knowing where I was like WHAT THE FUCK?! then I finally woke up, and just stayed there thinking about shit. so anyways, vanias baby shower was today earlier. a total of about 10 people came. not all at the same time though. it was awkward though because steph was there and drew came then mike was there and it was just fuckin wierd sometimes. tyler glass is apparently a pretty fun guy. I mean hes an oompa loompa and always will be to me but hes okay. I went to work this morning for a whole 2 and a half hours then I had to leave to get a card and the cake and pick up jess so phil covered for me. I ended up missing a pretty funny "make fun of lauren and kelly" day. theyre extremely dumb. well Im still half asleep. soo... :P
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Friday, August 19th, 2005
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| Time: | 10:52 pm. |
| Mood: |  tired. |
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Im exhausted. I had work from 7-3 and then I came home and had a margarita with my mom. And yes it was an alcoholic one. Then I went baby shower shopping with christie for tomorrow and then I picked up jess and we chilled til now. Two days ago I worked for 11 hrs straight. that was terrible. I was late today, like a half hour. my boss stopped caring, as long as I show up. This guy sean that I work with goes to penn state and next saturday were moving my brother in there so we are gonna visit sean. he said we will party haha. during the day? I doubt it. Anyways school starts in 11 days :P suck. Im going to bed YAY
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Monday, August 15th, 2005
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| Time: | 7:12 pm. |
| Mood: |  giddy. |
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senior pictures were today... :P I woke up at 11:40 and I had to shower get ready and be there by 1:40. I made it though. Then I stopped over at jess' house and we just chilled for awhile. Her and I are going to penn state not this saturday but the next to help move my brother in and I wanna show her the campus. We are thinking of going together and trying to get in the same dorm. Id be happy if I could get to live with one of my best friends the first year rather than some scandalous bitch. lol makes no sense. I talked to the new zealand boys and theyre coming back around here to trenton in a couple days and we are gonna meet up again before they go home for good. well my room needs to be visited by mr. clean so Im gonna do something about that. bye
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Sunday, August 14th, 2005
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| Time: | 4:40 pm. |
| Mood: | content. |
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work was so long today. I was being ridiculous and wierd as PER usual. lol and I decided like a flippin idiot to tell tyler I liked him. he said he had no idea and things like he "totally wants to be friends" and he "never thought of me that way". and I was talkin to my new zealand friend and last night he randomly said - I knew we should have made out. I was like NOT saying anything. tonight if my mahm lets me out I wanna go to the mall with kacy. I think Im gonna dye my hair once again. I got these two smartpunk cds at warped tour and theyre freakin amazing. I suggest anyone who likes music like me should get them. my dog sure is acting wierd today. oh! exciting news: I learned how to work the register at work today so hopefully work wont be so laborful from now on. I dont even know whats going on with a bunch of my friends right now. I am confused. nobody wants me anymore. OH Im officially quitting smoking. I might get a pack tonight but I will make it last for a couple weeks rather than one day. at work I had a half of one that they today inc. kids left and it nearly knocked me out. I got really lightheaded and I couldnt walk, my whole body went numb. that and the fact that my mom actually asked me for a cig yesterday was all so wierd so I decided Ive had enough of being a yucky smoker. proud? I know. jk :) smile. haha I love andy milonakis sometimes.
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Saturday, August 13th, 2005
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| Time: | 7:18 pm. |
| Mood: |  blah. |
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I got my haircut today! It's short but I like it now. Then I went to New Hope with my parents cause I am grounded for coming in 45 min past curfew last night lol. just for today and tomorrow though and I can have people over. Yesterday was warped tour! it rocked except that jess couldnt go cause Im the dumbass who lost her ticket. I lose everything. So I just went with sandra. There was a heat wave yesterday so it was unbearable. And my monthly best friend came to visit me yesterday right before the shower so you can imagine how happy I was. lol but I took tylenol and after we sat down for a bit I was ok. I almost threw up and passed out at the same time. I saw emery, hawthorne heights, boys night out, fall out boy, avenged sevenfold, motion city soundtrack, go betty go, the starting line, a thorn for every heart, and some more I can't think of right now. We left right before thrice and atreyu cause Ive seen them both before and sandra was tired and wanted to leave. But when we left these two boys wanted a ride over the bridge to see neil diamond and it was like a 5 minute drive so I said ok. They were really nice and from new zealand. they were adorable too, they worked at warped tour and we ended up hanging out with them for awhile. They were such sweethearts and they invited us into warped tour in nyc but we couldnt go even though theyd get us in free. it was such a random event but theyre going back to new zealand in about a week so I will probly never see them again but scott gave us his number so we can talk to them whenever. anyways I got lots of free stuff and a mcs school bag. It was really awesome besides being so exhausting. Im gonna go now
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Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
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well today I was sposed to go to the beach. but I woke up at 9:30 and was like well I guess thats not happening. so Im gonna relax instead. I ended up sleeping till 2ish. now I feel numb from the world. I dont have work (yes!) I do tomorrow but it will be fun cause matt will be there. anyway, Im going to warped tour on friday! woo! lol sandra and jess are coming. I cant type anymore cause I get a letter wrong in every freaking word and have to fix it all the time. well Im bored of lj so Im gonna go
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lol today was ridiculous. I was so tired but I never got a chance to nap. jess slept over last night which was hilariously awesome. then hali called so I hung out with her for a couple hours before she had work. I decided she still bothers me. she is just obnoxious too much of the time. then I got home from dropping her off and checked m,y phone and christie called 2x so I found out she was locked out of her house. so we went to wendys (yuck) and the guy at the cash register hit on me which was extra yuck. I didnt have enough money out and I went to get more and he was like dont worry anout it and tried to slyly grab a quarter out of his pocket but then dropped it on the floor. haha. then we met up with doug and vania and went out to eat at the great american then went bowling. I won! lol it was fun though. on the way home I got ran off the road by a drunk. I was surrounded by about 5 drunk people. then when I was pulling into christies development the person two cars in front of me was drunk and started breaking really early and quickly so I had to stop quickly and the drunk behind me nearly hit me. I was so infuriated. I hate that. ANYWAYS, Im tired... and I have work at 8am so nighty night
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Thursday, August 4th, 2005
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I just woke up like 45 min ago. so Im still in that half awake stage where youre kinda twitchy and cant open things or lift heavy stuff. pathetic, I know. I have work today again and Sandra is back so she'll be there today. I never got to hang out with tyler or christie last night but tonight I will. thats enough talking my brain doesnt want to think anymore
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Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
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| Time: | 1:43 pm. |
| Mood: | content. |
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today I have work again. :( I hope pat is working. and that the manager is matt. or amanda. tonight Im sposed to hang out with tyler and christie. tyler got his license! lol Im proud. last night I went to new hope with kacy and her friend karo from ireland. Im not sure if I spelled karo right though. shes really nice and pretty funny. I like her. last night I was having a really vivid dream that I was at my dads and my brother randy got tickets to see nine inch nails in philly but I thought I wasnt going so I didnt get ready til last minute and then my stepmom was yellin at me about it so I just put on my monkey hat and was like Im ready! so then they were doing all this stuff to get ready to leave the house then I got woken up because someone texted me in real life at 11:00 in the morning. jeez whats wrong with people? who gets up that early?? lol but Im not tired and I feel good today so its all good!
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| Time: | 10:02 pm. |
| Mood: | full. |
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it's been awhile since I've updated. but it has been a pretty crazy past month or so. my cousin madison and uncle jason came up visit us and then we went to cedar point in ohio for a bit. After that I went to alabama with them to see family like my grandma and grandpa. My cousin alex who is pretty damn big knocked me over lol and that caused a lot of drama. Everyone on my moms side of the family now knows that I smoke. They got on my case a little but oh well Im over it. Then I flew back alone. I had to stop in raleigh for two hours which was pretty boring but I just sat outside and talked to a bunch of my friends. When I came home I was soo happy to be home. Then I found out I had to work every day from tuesday to sunday. Everyday wasn't so bad though and now I have a nice break for two days. my next paycheck should be awesome, like $400 dollars. I washed my car all by myself today, inside and out. I still want to clean my room. Last night I hung out with Tyler and his friend Brian. He called me at like 8 when I woke up from a long nap and was like yeah we were just wondering what you were doing. So we smoked up a little and did salvia and it was fun. his friend brians cute. but I still like him most. Ive been altogether in a good mood lately. being happy is nice. well Im gonna go, just felt like updating. bye
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Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
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| Time: | 10:36 am. |
| Mood: | hyper. |
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heya! I feel pretty damn good today. I couldn't sleep til about 4 in the morning and I woke up at like 9 but I don't feel tired so yeah. Last night I ended up going to Kacy's and we watched I Heart Huckabee's. It was good, she got it better than I did but I don't really think it had a "story", it was just about extensionalism, you know... why things happen. Then yesterday I got a tamagotchi and Kacy is getting one so they can be friends. They're cute. It will probly get boring though.. I'll see how long I can keep mine alive. I cleaned my room last night! It's like a million times better. I can see the floor again :P I'm all full of energy and I dunno why hfsdlukfhsHdsla! slhflusa.. bye!
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Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005
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| Time: | 7:39 pm. |
| Mood: |  drained. |
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I'm so bored. Today I was thinking I would like to go to a new place, somewhere that I can make new friends.. It kinda seems like a lot of my friends have lost respect for me lately and I know I'm the one to blame but I don't know what to do about it. I might just be paranoid, but I can't just supress my feelings. Tonight I decided to just stay in, clean up my room and things. I called a few people but the ones I talked to are busy. Hali called me asking for her book and things but I keep "forgetting" to call her back. I don't mean to but I just put it off. I think I'm going to start going to the gym or working out, maybe it will make me feel better. In fact I think I'll go for a walk right now, it just rained and its pretty out
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| Time: | 10:58 pm. |
| Mood: | content. |
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It's been a hectic past couple of days. Last night I chilled with Anton, Tyler, and Jess and it was the funnest time I've ever had. They all make me laugh so much. At one point I actually said "If anyone makes me laugh more....it's NOBODY!" Then I slept over Britney's and that was a crazy fuckin' time. I love her. <3. Today I had work and we went out to the Great American for breakfast and the service was so horrible that we left without paying. Yeah, I feel shitty about it but oh wellll. Then I also got my hairs cute and ended up at KK's party with marisa and jess. There were lots of fun people there. Then Anton left his wallet in my car yesterday so I drove to the lambertville station to drop it off and I hafta say that was totally the highlight of my night. We smoked a cig and he rubbed my back and we were all cute. I'm hanging out wiht him tomorrow. I need gas so bad. lol well Im getting paid this tuesday (yes!). Everyone have a wonderful night <333
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Thursday, June 16th, 2005
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so. my MRI went okay. I was still clausterophobic besides the valium they prescribed me. I got the results and they said that everything seems normal, but I have a severe sinus infection. (RELIEF!!) Im just glad I dont have tumors or anything deleterious like that. I now have to take steroids and antibiotics lol to make my body able to get better. I have to go to work now. I'm looking forward to hanging out with anton and possibly tyler later tonight though. :)
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I need some new friends. Ones who actually want to chill with me. I wanna call anton tonight but I think he has work. Hopefully he won't work late. I got a text from shane saying what are you doin? so I replied and said I was bored and tired and he was like Im with brit and we dont have any bud do you? I said no and they didnt reply. Why should I hang out with them anyways if that's all I'm good for. I'm so worried about this MRI tomorrow, I could have a tumor or something cause my eyes are not aligned right anymore. :/ I know something is wrong with me, I'm constantly sick and dizzy with headaches.
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